When I was looking for a new challenge, I signed up for Ironman Miami 70.3 in April of this year. I hired a coach, underwent lactate threshold testing, and began training in May. I knew it would be a lot, but I never realized how grueling it would be on my body and on my mind. By the time August rolled around, I was burnt out. I was tired of the constant training and stress and having to plan my social life around when I could fit in a three-hour bike ride.
I continued with my training the best I could. “It’s only three months,” I told myself. “You can do anything for three months.” And think about how amazing you will feel when you cross the finish line.
The end of August rolled around and my body had just about had it with my training regimen. My IT band problems began to act up, my heel hurt, my calf and achilles were sore, and my back was tight. It was then that I decided to sign up for Ironman Silverman 70.3, which takes place at the beginning of October, as opposed to the end of October. “Six weeks,” I told myself. “You can get through the next six weeks.”
I decided not to continue training with my coach, but to follow some online training plans and get advice from my physical therapist, who has competed in Ironman events before. I knew it would be tough, but I had to power through.
Today it is September 11. My race is October 5. That is 23 days away. I never imagined that training for a half ironman would be so incredibly difficult mentally and physically. I could tell you guys that I am dominating my training—that I wake up every day with the motivation to hit the road or jump in the pool. But that would be a lie.
I am 100% worn out. I dread my workouts. My knees hurt. I doubt myself. I question why I ever signed up for such a grueling event. I consider pulling out. I cry. I worry I will make the time cutoff. My achilles hurts. I get angry at myself. But somehow I keep going and am able to convince myself that after 4 months of training, I must not give up.
I write this because I want everyone to know that I am human and this is the reality that I am currently dealing with. On Sunday, I will be competing in the Malibu Triathlon and I hope that it will remind me why I am doing what I am doing. I will keep you all updated on my training over the next three weeks. I have one more week of intensity and then will be tapering to prepare my body for the race. Life is about overcoming obstacles and challenging yourself and that is exactly what I am doing.